Feeling guitly for falling sick

Today I'm sick. The usual, nose allergy and sore throat. It has been a year since I last got sick.

This time, this usual illness felt different. This is the first time that I felt guilty for falling sick. I've never feel like this before. In the past, my thought about sick is that sometimes people worked too hard, thus, the body will react by getting sick to tell the body owner to slow down pace and rest. I used to like it when I was sick as I get to rest my mind, body and soul.

But today, I felt the total opposite - Sad =((. My mind kept reminding me of the things I gotta to do at work. I tried to stop myself from thinking about it but it is still coming back. I've got so many to do at work, that I can't afford to get sick. Once I'm sick, the work will get even more when I go back to work.

Besides that, I also felt useless. When I'm sick and resting at home, my mind is not functioning correctly to help me work. I felt guilty as I'm back to home early and my colleagues are still in the office working. OMG, I've never thought I would ever felt guitly for work. For godness sack, of all things in the world~!!! Damn, is Work trying to conquer myself? No way, please go away. Work is just a minor part of my life. I've gotta keep that in mind. Hmm, maybe I need to jot it down in a 'post-it' in the room to keep reminding myself bout it. ~Tink-Tink~*Good Idea*

Haih, is it me changing or is it the age thingy and those hormone in the body is controlling my emotion? I don't know -_-. But I do believe that people can grow/change within a day from what is happening around them in that special particular day.

Stupid MistakeS....DoomeD~!

I did a silly mistake today but got save the bell (I think). Things got a little off hand but I still managed to work around it. I think I got it totally messed up and me going around fixing it. But a colleague of mine says I did a good job. Ermm, I seriously don’t think so. Nowadays, I can’t even justify whether are they being serious, sarcastic or just kidding.

Another mistake was I totally forgot a deadline that I set on the work. I got so occupied with other work that I missed it. Another doom step from promotion (early next year). I can now *muaks* it *bye bye*. Have I really got too much on my plate or is it just me working too slow. I don't know.

I really need self discipline but recently I find IT really hard to control. IT has been everywhere recently, IT never stick to plan (except for food). I felt like I was back in the university, the same situation. Too many things to work on, too little time with no self discipline. It’s like working on my design and thesis at the same time with extracurricular activities to run. Oh my…I need mitigation action NOW NOW NOW~!

A Helping Act IS Contagious

Last week when I was flying from KL back to Miri, I helped an old lady with her baggage on the overhead compartment. I felt so happy that I helped her cz I saw that a helping act is contagious. Let me explain further.

I boarded the plane and I was sitting in 5D (aisle seat). An old lady around her 60s walked into the plane with a handcary non-woven shoulder carry bag. She was travelling alone. I think she don't travel much as she is not certain where was her seat. Her seat was 5B (bulk seat). She asked the 5C passenger who was a gal in her 20's (younger than me - looked like a student) to confirmed her seat. The old lady knows she gotta put her bag on the overhead compartment. Thus, she walk to the aisle way, wanting to put it up but the compartment was full. The baggage needs some adjustment and her bag will fit in just right. I thought the young lady in 5C is gonna help but she ignored her. So, promptly, I un-buckled my belt and stand up to rearranged the baggage and help the old lady with her baggage. I think I shocked the passenger, a mid 30's lady who is sitting beside me when when I unbuckled and stood up to help. I saw her glancing at me and my act. I shocked the 5C passenger as well. hehe. Anyway, I felt good that I helped. The old lady didn't say thanks to me cz I think she felt confused and all. haha. That's okay.

The contagious helping act was that after the old lady finished her lunch box. She wanted to tidy it up to ease the stewardess in collecting it later. Thus, she was strugling to put a paper band over the lunch box. That's when I saw the 5C young lady helped the old lady with it. Wow, I felt so glad that I helped the old lady. A helping act is contagious. I really hope the other in the plane saw what I did and will help others who came along their path.

If everyone starts with one helping act and the act is returned to some other person, I truly believe that the world will be a better place. PEACE ^_^

Bangkok Golden Palace 6 June 2008

The palace is full of bling bling. We went there a little late, as I remembered it should be around 2pm nearly to 3pm and it closes at 4pm. Didnt really have much time to wonder around and take as much photos as needed. The visit was like, wanna take photo? If no, we move on. Everything was in a rush. haha. When looking back at this pic, I was so thin. Ouch, really gotta lose some weight now.

Bridge Over The River Kwai, Thailand 5 June 2008

Pork Ball ...Yum..Yum...

Kanchanaburi Tiger Temple, Thailand 5 June 2008

Tiger temple, the name sounded really nice but there's something more than just a temple. This temple claimed itself as a sanctuary for wild animals especially tigers but Care for the Wild International (CWI) reported that this temple is trafficking tigers with neighbouring country. It was published in The Star newspaper July 2008 (http://thestar.com.my/lifestyle/story.asp?file=/2008/7/15/lifefocus/1535960&sec=lifefocus). I do agree with this as I do felt uncomfortable with the temple. 300 bath (appox MYR 30) is charged as entrance fees. Besides that, an amount of money is stated for "donation". It is stated that visitors are not allowed to wear stricking shirt colors like orange, red, yellow etc. Guess what shirt color the volunteers are wearing, stricking green. Can you believe it?! There's really something not right with this temple.

I can't deny that photograph with these big cats really looks great =P

Looks at those poor tiny little ponies. Although visitors pay a big sum of entrance fees, the wild animals are not being fed well.

All animals are in the wild. The good part is that visitors can get really upclose with the wild animal. The bad part is wild animals can attack and visitor will get really injured. My friend and I experienced it. It was around 4-5pm and it's feeding time for the wild boars, horses, buffalos etc. Volunteers threw food on the streets and all animals gather around for food. As we were running a little behind schedule, my friends and I would like to leave the place. The nearest exit is on the other side of the street. As my two friends and I were crossing the street, we passed some wild boars and buffalos. As we were almost reaching the other side of the street, we passed a buffalo and it suddenly attacked us with its horn. OMG~! I was shocked and manage to dodge in time while remained calm. Thanks godness, no one was hurt. I guess we were walking to near and it thought we were going after its food.

Floating Market, Thailand 5 June 2008

This is one of the most important process in making coconut sugar - straining. What is this guy straining? Guess..He's straining out 'flies', yes the big eyes flying insect. Ewww...

I really like these table lamp that are make out of coconut shell. Very creative.

Fresh coconut. Sweet and cheap.

I like the banner. Straight to the point "Big Snake. No Dangerous". Hehe

Lovely and colorful paintings of Thailand Floating Market

Love those hats too. It give me the feel of an english lady on a boat in the lake holding a cute lacely umbrella. Oh, with a charming gentleman rowing the boat .^_^.

Yumm..Yumm..Some delicious local food sold at the market. Coconut cake and duck noodles.

Geonicide Museum and The Killing Field, Phnom Penh

The Geonocide Museum

Read the board, it explain how a high school became S.21 (Security Office 21). This is the place where Pol Pot torture the innocent people of Cambodia from high rank officer to farmers, from old man to young babies. An education building being turned into a dark torture place.

The building are all fenced up to prevent Pol Pot's prisoners from jumping off the building and commit suicide.

The Killing Field

This tower is build as a memorial to those that were killed during Pol Pot's Regime. This is a really sad place to visit. During the geonicidal years, Pol Pot's soldier brought prisoners from various security office to be killed in this field. There are villages around this killing field. Thus, in order to drown the screaming of prisoners, loud speaker are put around the field. During the killing, songs were played to drown the pitiful screaming of prisoners. All prisoners are killed and dumped into a big hole. To ensure all prisoner are dead and to cover the stench of the dead bodies, Pol Pot soldiers poured Dioxin onto the dead bodies. Such a cruel act. May all of those that are killed by Pol Pot's soldiers rest in peace.

Phnom Penh 3 June 2008

Across the street from Golden Palace, there was an offering going on. Look the the massive crowd. People rushing into the small little temple to present their offering to their God. By the side of the temple fences, there are alot of beggers sitting at the side. This is really a sad scene seeing beggers on the road of Phnom Penh, the capital of Cambodia.

Devotees offering their prayer to their mighty God. Kids having noodlee soup by the road side.

Musics are played as part of the offering

There are many young children holding cocunut shell with light for devotees to light their incense sticks

People rushing into the small temple to present their offering and prayers.

Food In Cambodia

Pork porridge. Looks plain but tasted real good.

Chicken soup with noodle. Soups is crystal clear. First impression, must not be tasting really good as the soup is like what I said crystal clear. Tried my first sip of the soup, unbelievably full of aroma. Love those 'taugeh' (beansprout), tiny winny but really crunchy. Soy bean paste is always the sauce unlike malaysia which normally served chilies with soy sauce.

Dinner at Foreign Correspondence club (FCC) both in Siem Reap and Phnom Penh. The hang out place for foregin press. Served good traditional Khmer food.

Snails sold by road side. Did not taste it of course, though feel very much wanna have a bite. I bet my stomach can't take it and don't wanna spend my vacation days in the toilet (diarrhea).